i think i am..

I think I am becoming obsessed with Cinema Bizarre. I wake up with their songs and fall asleep with them. It is getting hard to not to be way from their music. I download all of their songs! I have a frashdrive filled with their music and pictures. I have to listen and everytime I listen I become who I want to be. I feel as if I have been their fan since day one. It is hard to take the fact that I would never get to see their concert. I want to go to the one in Tampa, but I couldn't. I love the band. I pretty much gave up loving any guys for them. they make feel safe, beautiful, and confident about myself.They are my gods in this world. their in every thought I have. I think I am falling in love with every member of the band. They have this magnet control on me. And it is hard to be just like a few a hours way from their music or pictures. I made a youtube account because of them. And it is all about them. Why am I going deeper wioth this maybe because their my desire or because I truelly feel connected to them and want somebody to know this. And to get to know why am so passinate about them. this feels so much better to know that i am broadcasting this to everyone. And it is making me strong and love this feeling that get when I am writing about them. I feel so alive doing this and now i feel better about telling you guys. They seem to calm me down. I real enjoy hearing the individaul sounds that they have created.I hope you understand. PLEASE.